Hola :]

Stars feel like knives,
They tell us why we're fighting.
Storm, wait outside.
Oh, love, hold us together.

-Love, Save The Empty

anyways, im happy. like im always happy. me and my best friend are closer than ever and its great:] me and my parents are chill too. as the school year is winding down im pretty bored tho, just waiting for summer to come! my summer is going to be fucking-fantastic :D
mk so this is what im doing this summer. not in order tho cuz i have no idea haha.
WARPED TOUR!!!
BEACH
D.C.
MEGHAN'S HOUSE IN PHILLY (AND JERSEY SHORE)
COACHING FOR KICKING FOR HUNGER:]
CAMP CHEERIO!
HANGING OUT W/ RACHEL AND GETTING TANNN
yep so thats my awesome summer and im so freaking excited!

aaaaanywaysss.

so there are 2 girls. one of them i dont like at alll and shes annoying and she likes me.
the other is adorable, probably not gay.....and i sort of like her.

whenever she looks at me, theres always this pause and the look in her eyes is like a conversation shes trying to have with me, or shes tellings me things, im aware that sounds crazy BUT her eyes....they're beautiful. and shes nice and i dont know haha.
she always comments on my rainbow bracelet like every time she sees it she looks at it, looks at me, and smiles with those eyesss :]
i find myself wanting to protect her allll the time and wanting to give her everything she wants.
the other day we were joking around at soccer and i like fake high fived her and she laughed and was like
"ughh i hate you haha" and i was like "nah you dont hate me" and she was like "would you be able to live with that?" and i was like "hmmm...it'd be really hard"
and again she gave me that look with those eyes :]
then when we were scrimiging my friend liz wasl ike mauling her and just being really agressive and kept pushing her down. and i got so mad. im captain of the team so i was like liz lay off her! and liz was like what? and i was like you know what, cool it! and liz was like whatever and i was like wtf ill kick ur ass bitch. (in my head haha) and so she came up to me and grabbed my arm and started pulling me away then she faced me towards her and she was like cass, its okay really, im fine. and i was like dude shes after ur ass alll the time and she was like i know cass, its fine dont worry about me then smiled at me AND AGAIN WITH THAT LOOK.
and i like randomly find her staring at me and it always makes me smile.

so yea im rambling but, that look! im addicted. i keep trying to picture it in my head but i just cant.

oh yea shes dating this total douch giant. she could totally do so much better than him and im not even thinking me, just that she could do way better.

so yea soccer season is starting up again and im sort of exciteddd. i think im gettin a chick coach which should be fun cuz i've never had one before. besides my 2 school coaches which are really cool.

so i cant wait for spring break w/ rachel at myrtle beachhh :]

ooooooh yeaaaaaa i forgottt!
i've decided to tell jenn this summer at the beach that im gay.
i mean i figure she'd be most understanding because one of her best friends is gay.
so yea i have that to look foward to....=/

this summer is gonna be great and im gonna leave it at that :]