LIFE RANT

Everyone that i truly love always has to go and make me miserable at one point or another.

everyone i end up truly loving i cant have.

i honestly believe im meant to die alone. or with a guy.

imfuckinggay. but nooo god has to send this gorgeously hot guy who actually likes me into my life who is absolutely perfect and fucking hot to boot.

and even tho im aware of all this im just not interested in him that way. but god he is so cute and so sweet and funny. all the things i want...INAGIRL.

YA HEAR ME GOD?! IM GAY!



and apparently a bit psycho.


so yea no one ever give me a chance they always just assume whatever they want and it pisses me the hell off. like colleen. she just assumes im always gonna be there to do whatever the fuck she wants me too. well guess what im fucking thru with people treating me like im indisposable.

the world can fuck itself. i've decided i dont need anyone anymore. i can live with out friends. from now on im gonna be a loner. im just gonna get thru whatever i have to and wait until someone worth me comes along. someone that treats me like im a human. someone who actually thinks about me and my feelings before they just.... i dont even know.

existing through these broken times
she stands in the middle of a massive crowd
all she hears is distant chimes
locked away inside her head
shes tuned out everything loud
she doesnt know where shes going or who with
as she looks to the future all she sees is a myth
she isnt happy with where she is
a boy so sweet but she doesnt want to be his
she wants some purpose in her life
until then she has her knife
to keep her company in the dark
the pain she feels is like non other
cold and numb
like a storm cloud here to smother
nothing in her head really makes sense
she makes it up as she goes
with her plastic smile for all to see
all she really wants is them to see ME.


worst poem in the history of poems but it makes sense inside my head.


i havnt found you yet whoever you are but when i do, you have a lot of pent up love for you that i should probably give to people but its comin to you because no one else seems worthy.

give me a chance to find love God. please. I dont care if you have to take something to give it to me. take it. i just want someone to love that will love me back regardless of who i am. because im not having a baby to get it like all those retarded teen girls do.

k im ranting and none of this even makes sense except to me so yea im gonna stop now.
kbye.